tomorrow ):

t o m o r r o w.

tortures starting tml (:
todays the last day of school, like normal school hours schday.
no more worrying abt reg no. appearing on the board.
no more trying to hide that i didnt bring or domaths worksheets.
no more sleeping in class.
for now, anyway.
thats the gr8est consolation i guess.

had caregrp aft sch (:
theres still so much to learn.
im sorry lord for the things i have made it.
when its all about you, its all about you jesus.
leading a blameless life.
went home with pam and had a very good laugh over smth very interesting.
on the tibs bus. we were sitting very near the driver, facing 4 seats lah.
then just nice, the 4 pple that sat on the four seats symbolise the 4 races of spore!
and they really look like they were purposely placed there to shoot a photo or smth. their clothes were pretty traditional lorh. haha. x)

yesterday.
the pmd evolved into selfE.
we may have not accomplished what we set out to do. but we still learned and grew in other ways bah. everyones moods were weird.
sorry for the emotions pple. ):
conquer the things written on the card and grow.
AND. CLas jiayou. (:
monday.
im getting senile. it takes me very long to rmb what happened.
ahh.. oh yah! i didnt go to school. lol.
stayed home the whole day. had slight flu..

cheong through this 2-3 weeks.
let it be over real soon.

may your peace be with all of us.

stagnity.

heh. another blog going stagnant.
eoys mugging.
cheonging for him.
but it has alr been stagnant for so long. my tagboards dead. haha.

went to shepherd rach across macs dearest hotcakes.
and went for amaths tuition. laughed until cry.
coversation:

ying: ehh, pj (my tutor) smiles like pete!
lays: na ni hui? jonathan! pj doesnt look like pete right?!
pj: huh? u say i look like brad pitt? or thank you! *biggrin*
us: lol! no lah!
pj: huh? then not brad pitt then what pitt? armpit ah? the only pitt i know besides brad pete is armpit what.

lol. i think its funny. :D
was taking spas photos of tcs on the bus.
and then walked ard for lunch. sushi sandwich etc.
went for this open innovation carnival thing and had a great butterfly-human fairy thing painted on my hand! for free! the person very luhai. she did it free hand. then went for tuition. :D ahha!

tuition was exceptionally fun!
had the longforgotten agar2 and mochi.

anw a little not well. so not gg sku. :p haha.
shall mug these days. (:

i trade my sorrow for your peace.

wonDAful day (:
had geog extra lesson at 8.
supersleepy. went so that got free ride and allowance. haha.
left early and missed the pizze ):
but for service's sake, alls worth it. heh.

worship was really really great.
how great is our god.
and sermon was really well preached.
im famished and want to be so well fed.
anderson had two converts and st nicks had one!
(: breakthrough.
thank god for all my sheep. (:

i wasnt feeling too good aft geog and was carrying fengyou aka medicated oil ard. and its of help. for a sister in church. haha. godsend :P
and saw pple got so touched by him the tears just came.
wow.

had marcom meeting. so thats the europe room ah. haha.
was interesting. first time. we have a task :D to test standard. hurs!
then me, yanyu and pete went to istana for northeast pm.
and hear the anouncement of the great northeast blog!
cool web. so close to us.

went makaned with pam eewee rach tracie zhiwei and huitian (:
then had pme with pete n jon and yk. haha.
so funny. very weird. hurhur.
took the purple line and met guihao and tiffany @ serangoon.

haha. loving church more and more.
and thanks shepherd for the great cd! yhope's own production! elpizo. hope in GREEK. a few yrs ago i think. maybe if i learn greek i can understand greekish maths lessons.
i still love this song loads. my first song at church camp.

the love of my life
with my eyes i long to see You smile
with my ears i long to hear Your voice
With all my heart i long to feel You
with all my soul i long to seek You

please let me find the way to Your dwelling place
i long to hide in the shadow of Your wing
to find my rest as i dwell in Your peace
to live forever in the beauty of Your praise

draw me close to You, close by your side
i want to hold You tight, close to my mind
come take me to the place
where you could be found

i want to praise You Lord, all of my life
i want to let You know, from the depth of my heart
You'll be forever Lord
the Love of my life.

composed and writted my our very own fellow church member. (:
hafnt felt this peace in my heart for very long.

(:

(:

hallelujah.
im awed.
people being transformed by God.
people that you never thought.

its pamela's one year spiritual birthday this sunday!
and i think she just got the best bd present she can ever have.
what a faithful god, what an awesome god.

i longed to have her present too.
its gona be one yr for me in 2 months time.
maybe i have given up on you pple.
but deep inside i long to hug you and welcome you to this great big family of god.
yah, ur lives are good.
but it will get better than good.
if only you will.

god blessed us so much.
prayer works wonders.
jieling can come to service!

we are the reason you gave your all.

looking back in retrospect, maybe it was the same.
looking at the road ahead. i dont see you by my side.

***

so happy for pam.
overjoyed. we truly are.
if u will ever understand.

.

-

sora.
thats sky in jap (:
im still obsessed with skies.
as though behind all the clouds your face hidden. your face i desire and seek yet never see.
anw. mugged one chap of chem today. haha. very little >.>
at nyp. with ber jon jass and xin.

haha.
my tagboard die-ed.
and my blog is going to be ONE! lol.

today is the first day in months that im like really free.
like no plans at all after school. haha.

theres really nothing to blog about.
...

and in two hours time, TGIF.
thank god its friday.
thank god ccas get suspended. :X
at the crossroads. i look to you. ***

laments.

life is unpredictable.
we dont know what tommorrow holds. but we know he holds tomorrow. and thats a great consolation in itself.
i cant see the way ahead. the path i have to walk. but i see your light at the end. never fading.

the usuals.
had a mass shepherding thoughs, at nyp on mon. three sheep(s). heh.
and got pissed off at channel five.
for cutting atm for some award ceremony. ):

feeling burdened. a need to do something. what? i dont know.
sometimes life churns and a you find yourself piak slapped in the middle of a trial. theres no running away or diving into escapism.
struggle. thats when you will see.

at the finishing line. how many can make it?
the glory. are you going to be among it?
rejoicing over the victory we won?

we'll see.

angels clothed in flesh.
look around.

t ruth.

saying this for the dono-what time.
i love saturdays! (:

sats are always well spent.
went to bk @ fareast with yihui. for breakfast.
she attempted to squirt a squirt of water at me.
end up she poured water over me >.> lol.
chatted and went to cuppage already.
missed nexus so much!

service was great. songs were great and sermon served such a great reminder.
i have to be healed from my DIT syndrome- the do it tomorrow syndrome.
let me understand that what i am doing is a duty you gave me and let me do it well. i desire to please you. (:
never say die, lemme praise you.
through the storm,
yet i will praise you.
(forgot this line :X)
yet i will sing.
you are the voice of Hope.
the anchor of my soul.
you are the prince of peace.
amidst adversity.

rach, seepeng and zhiyan joined us for udm (:
hope they enjoyed the game. haha. quite lame :X
gid's teaching was inspiring.
striving to be a better shepherd.
learned and reminded of many things in a short time. haha.

walked to ps with pam and did a lame experiment. negative results.
and met xin. her phone is working! yeay. haha. and took train home.

my parents are reaching home alr.
back from china.
there goes my freedom (:

leading a life that is authentic and real throughout.
and is following Him through and through. blameless.

the last ten days.
being different in this stressful time. not indifferent anymore, but different.
dwelling in your presence has always been comforting.

agape.

pm rocked.
really.
i felt so recharged after that.
is the world holding us back or are we holding onto it?

i turned a corner.
and i fell.
the hands stretched to help.
they werent the ones i used to hold.
but they feel so familiar.
we have a purposeful life.
had guitar lesson with pam. ian taught us.
uhm, very very weird.
very awkward, cause we dont know him well mah >.>
and theres 3 other bros in the room.and i got inferiority complex.
me and pam keep nodding in unison to his Qs. haha.

then me, pam and eewee went for taohui. aka beancurd.
i gulped down the soyabean drink. was very dehydrated aft pm. lol.

very not myself today sia.
didnt eat lunch. had chocs only.
and dinner was that drink and bread. haha.

anw guides phototaking was lame. we changed for uhm. 5mins for that 5 shots. by mr lim. haha.

down /pause/ up up down /pause/ up up down up down up .. :X (:

everything i've been through,
use it for your glory.

im tired.
recently's been quite hectic.
sick of fast food. ):restaurants as shepherding locations.
having dinner with broinlaw/sis nightly is quite good actually.
i mean the good food part aside, its good time to catch up and stuff.
had sakae (: finally. udon <3
had shepherding with tracie @ amk central mos.
met a lot of pple.
qiao, weekeong, fab, anqi, hanhui, mak etc.
rach sat in.
then very long ltr, pete joined.
we were discussing abt stuff, super unconstructive >.>

i dont feel like thinking recently.
eoys. its not far away. i ought to wake up.

zzz.

caregrp yesterday was not bad.
loads of food. thanks nedone. haha. (:
the guys grp having cg in the room. and our timings very wrong.
different atmosphere, then quite weird.

had dinner with yihui and pam at yoshij8.
and realised no more money for mrt trip.
...

happt birthday munyee!

beauty is only skin deep.
it thats all you will see.
maybe if we had those eyes.

joy radiating from within.
his children.
the glory and the victory.
thats beauty.
in my eyes.

ordinary people
but with the shine.
the overflowing joy.
they cant contain it. we cant contain it.

getting more unconcerned about mundane and worldly stuff.
they are really.. well.. mundane in comparison.

trials.
many atimes they seem like the plunge off the tower.
u know u dont want to do it.
yet after flying through and sustaining and keeping on the path.
you cant believe u did, but then u did.


monday had pme. haha. quite fun.
pity to have to have it outside the studyroom.
the woman is really. uhm. a peaceseeker. haha.
sads pam @ cello.
we last min decide to have one. haha.

went to nyp with ying n jon
had icekachang. bliss! haha.

shepherd-ed jieling just now.
so drained after it. hope she really learn. (:
then was doing hw with jon in longjohn
it rhymes! :P


holding on.
duty ;
showing the way.
until he comes.
salt and light. (:

hardcakes.

whee.
this morning.
went to meet pam, jon and pete.
to discuss tml's pm! ned1 and nea3 combined.
the guys wanted to go up the hill. the amk park place.

but me n pam dont want to pa shan. haha. so early somemore.
and jon wants to eat.
so we all went to macs.

hotcakes.
todays hotcakes very lousy. hard one. ):
so turnoff. dampen the great morning. orh wells.
saw some church brothers in macs.

then soon pam had to go.
so we three tried to do hw.
me n pete like talking. then jon doing.

time flies.
and we finally pack finish.
apparently the guys felt nostalgic? they went to play with stuff at the kids corner.
left for tenchi. god bless (: they dont have records for the comics. so i dont need pay the 10 days overdue. hehs.

trio splitted.
pete went to lib f0or remedial, jon off home, and i went to meet pam @ bugis.
we shopped, and took neos! haha. i never take individual ones with her before, all with whole chunk for guides bluey pple. we had fun climbing on the pole thing :X

pam got to leave. so i did mad shopping again.
needed to get munyee and sandricks birthday presents and a very belated tchers day gift.
so weird.
i forgotten the dates, was cooped up for too long.
then while we were discussing in the morning, petes phone beeped.
"ehh your brother in law's birthday leh, today"
then i panicked. haha.
i told him some time then he recorded down for fun. it helped. haha.

ooh met weilun and jiancong.
very funny. haha.

then i went for tuition. and home.
my nephew likes me more.
he doesnt throw logans at me anymore. (:
he passes stuff to me nicely.
:D

school. tomorrow.
sobs.

ciaos.

stars *

heh. cixin visited me just now.
with her maths.
anw she drew a pict.
then i scan in and we made a layout.
(: rain!

then crap ard, watch zhen qing.
i dont understand why she watches it.

haha then she fled when my parents returned.

my parents are packing luggage for their china trip.
quite cute leh. haha. for once.
like young couple arguing over what to bring. lol.

heh. anw heard from pete n pam.
the retreat was great.
might be going there for cg? yeay ^^

that abt it. shall go back to homework.
schools reopening again.
that final two weeks.
nah. still got Os.
sighs.
anw me n ber like quite cool lah.
Os end then we might just fly that very night.
hongkong disneyland!

as for now. never ending slogging.
quite excited about shepherding sheeps leh next week.
even though sheep doesnt have plural, but so used to it liao lah. haha. later cixin say i got bad grammar again. hmph. :P
really wish to impart fully. so much. that they can grow.

all the cases of murdering someone and cutting the body up.
whats the world coming to?
why do u want to cut someone up?
if all understood forgiveness. beauty of it.

feels like stargazing off somewhere now.
like lugging a luggage. (is that why its called a luggage? cause u lug it?)
sit on the plane fly off somewhere far away.
sit on top of a green plateau (yikes. geog)
and look up. and thank god he made stars.

*slaps self*

two more freaking weeks to eoys. okok.

depressed.

i just broke the record.
i stayed home for the WHOLE holidays.
you talk about no life.

dont ask me how i survive.
i dont really know myself.

bleach is overdue for 9 freaking days.
and i cant go and and return it.

missing out all the church events.
and im damn sad. ok.
service and clm today.

im going mad soon. seriously.
its like being jailed lah.
i will just be one of the many many many students in imh anyway.

at least my parents are off to china for one whole week next week.
monday to saturday.
maybe i will get some peace. and more freedom.


feeling the distance.
yet not the urgency.
whys the worth going down?
spiralling. and if it doesnt turn back.
that spells the end.

at this point in time, u will wonder.
wheres my friends?

stuck.

sobs.
this hols a torture.
with the stupid fever.
didnt get to go out for the whole week. or actually touch the books.
i wish i get the full motivation. but i really dont get very affected by those pple.
quite used to the andersonians cheonging and slogging their days out.
only find them very irritating.
anw another layout.
i drew it (:
during the days im trapped here and got nth to do.
and wud rather believe that the fever disables me from doing hw.
so i d r ew.
but its quite ugly :X but haiya. until got mood thn change again.

desperately wants to go out tml >.>
anw thanks all Hoppians <3
very concerned pple. (:

dreading year ends so so much.
pui.

suddenly upset. haha.

im finally touching the comp again.
after s i x days.
was really sick. its quite stupid.
ok after the last time i blogged, then still felt very sick.
so finally went to the doc. temp 40.7 0.o
apparently suspected dengue case. and if really so really damn jialats lah.
so ate all the fever medicines. and the temp subsided for the whole day the 2nd day so thought hao liao.
third day. temp starts fluctuating between 38-39+ again.

i also abit blur about the dates number.
but anw my mum brought me to this weird chi sinseh.
his "clinic" is this dilapidated little flat place- 2nd floor of shophouse.
he uses a thermometer with mercury and a bulb. that doesnt beeeep --"
then he did a few tests. and says i have some funny illness and gave alot of bitter weird charcoal tastelike stuffs.

but the more i consume his medicines, the temp got over 39.
and finally went to my sis ex-workplace.
and the doc said smth intelligent.
"its nothing really serious you know"
its smth abt tonsils being infected with bacteria.
and tonsils is smth at the throat or smth. can cut off one.
so he gave antibiotics. so i ate just now. and fever subsided immediately.

went for blood test this morning to confirm that its not dengue.
the polyclinic is the fastest place you can get a blood test, according to the doc.
but apparently they have really really weird pple there >.>

yah its alr thurs. and i just started on hw. (: die die die.
EVERYONES AT METAMORPHOSIS!
i miss church a lot alot alot. T.T
oh yah, im in marcom. (: and ltr got meeting but cant go. oh wells.

thats my boring 6 days.
i hafnt seen a single friend. im dying pretty soon (:
miss all of you!

*

i hate being sick.
esp on saturdays.
i missed service. and dmm.
and jasmines birthday celeb. ):
how depressing.

moviemarathon was quite stupid.
i only watch the first movie. which is stupid, because we were late and i didnt really understand.
slept through the rest of the movies. at least we manage to wish jasmine a happy birthday @ midnight. and her dearest presents are locked in threeone. so we caused her to have the so near yet so far feeling ^^
i was shivering @ 2 or 3am. inspiretowns aircon is superb. then realised developed fever. ):
head was heavy. thanks mak. she slept on the hard hard bench with me outside the room.
at least shes the only one i saw when i woke up at 6am.

friday me n pam left guides halfway to go to prayermeeting. first time going for pm (:
was nice. me pam n yihui prayed for 20mins for breakthroughs in many areas. then i went to qiaos hse to bathe and joined pete n jon and we all went to sch together for moviemarathon.

anw reached home at 7+ and slept till 3 :X
woke up to yihuis phonecall @ 1230 and realised that i missed service alr. head was spinning when i woke up. then didnt go for dmm. ):

oh. thursday was another long day. had caregroup in the morning. love the worship.
then rushed to meet ying n mak @ bugis. mrt threeline change sia. purple to red to green.
we were shopping as though was playing amazing race. for jasmines presents.
nearly die-d. running all over bugis.
cause have tuition @ 5 and apparently we were still at bugis at 5. :X

so me n ying rushed off.
and we lost our way.
brianless duo eh. haha missed the stop mah. we are such great students we were late on tchers day. ): got pj a candle. and the super nice pj shared the chocolates he got from his other pupils. and the chocs got everyone very high sia. everyone was so cheered up. chocs rock.

was on way home from tuition and heard this durian stall uncle saying to pack up and rush home to watch superstar. its amazing how superstar is so impactful. everyone watches it. and i feel that weilian will impact the lives of many others like him. that they may find the courage to live like he lives. theres so many of such competitions after singapore idol lah. wonders how many trashed dreams lie behind the glamour on stage. ):

was praying to be healed just now. and feels alot better now.
the fever didnt subside for very long. but now alot better liao. (: praise god!

happy birthday `ta.
hope u like all the presents (: